It came out positive.
My period had been late for about a month. I didn't think much of it as that wasn’t out of the norm. It often happened when I was particularly stressed out. My friends and I liked to joke about it, “You girls are about to become aunts. My period is late again LOL.”
When a second month passed by, I started feeling uneasy and decided to purchase a pregnancy kit at Watsons. I didn’t take it seriously up till the point of waiting for the test results. To my utter shock, it came out positive.
I couldn’t believe it. I had a fetus growing inside of me? I simply wasn’t able to comprehend it. I thought that I had been careful enough with using protection, using the ‘pull out method’ or 'doing it' on my safe days. There was no way I could tell my parents about it, they probably even still think that I’m a virgin! How was my boyfriend going to react to the news?
3 days later
After days of hesitation and pacing back and forth in my room, I finally gathered the courage to inform my boyfriend. His reaction from finding out was no different from mine - complete shock, helplessness and a loss for words. He asked if I was certain and made me buy another 2 test kits to make sure. There was no doubt then that I was indeed pregnant.
I started to get the impression that he was trying to deflect his responsibility. He asked questions like whether the baby was really his and kept talking about his ambitions and goals in the near future.
Eventually, what I had hoped to delay came to light. My now ex-boyfriend told me that he couldn’t deal with the situation and said that I should quickly terminate the pregnancy. We never officially ended things or talked it out. I regularly texted and called him, pleading for his compassion. I had no one else to turn to. Overtime he became unsupportive and grew distant, then completely stopped responding one day. He had left me in this deep pit all alone.
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